spirit carries on

This night, 5th Sept. 2013.
I'm in my bed, my own room, raining outside.
I feel warm, safe.
This quiet is so peacefully.

Until those things pop-up again and again in my head.
arrrgh. How can I avoid them!
I hate when people ask me about that mentioning stuff.
I hate when I can't answer them.

I'm on my struggling days. very hard days.
Support from everyone, is all I want.
LoA is all I need.

Sometimes, I feel that giving up is the right choice.
Maybe I can work, that's not really hard to get than this school-and-scholarship-hunting.

But

The day when I realized, what do I want the most, what is my dream since I was a kid, my ardor's back.

SO, NO MATTER WHAT THE-BLOODY-HELL HAPPENS NOW, I NEVER SAY GIVE UP!
I BELIEVE ALL THE BEST PEOPLE ARE, SO I BELIVE THAT I CAN DO MY BEST TILL I GET THE BEST.